Monday, August 19, 2019

Cancer: Well, Shit.

It's back.

Talk about counting some chickens. I had always thought I might have to deliver the bad news again; after all, Cathy's cancer of choice was particularly pernicious and there was a high chance of recurrence. But after she responded so well to the chemo and the surgery was so positive, I thought--we thought--we'd have a year or two before we had to worry about this again.

We sure as hell didn't think the down time would be three months. Not even an "All-Clear" to the end of the year? Come on, Cancer. I know you're an asshole, but do you have to be such a fucking asshole?

Here's what we know: because of the quickness with which the cancer has returned, it means that Cathy has developed an immunity to her chemo drugs, so we are going on to treatment option number two: different chemo drugs, with side effects that are a cause of concern. Specifically, blood clots, which are already a problem for Cathy to begin with.

This is a six month treatment. Not sure what that will fully entail, but she's going to start the week after next. And just like that, we are back in the barrel.

In an effort to provide balance to this shitty update, I have two pieces of news that may offset some of the existential dread I feel right now.

Numero Uno: Since we caught this new cancer (still in the lining between her organs) inside of three months, it's much smaller and so hopefully we won't have to deal with any surgery.

Numero Two-oh: My edema continues to shrink and has in fact reduced size and density by two thirds. It's still deformed looking and horrible, but it's a much smaller horribleness.

I'll put more up when I know more. This week we have two different tests to determine if there are going to be any complications with the treatment. I've also updated the GoFundMe account, as we are already getting static from the insurance company.

Well, those three months where Cathy was okay and I was getting my mojo back were pretty swell while they lasted. Looks like I'll be seeing everyone on the other side of 2020.

8 comments:

Unknown said...

Mother.Fucker.

Charles Gramlich said...

Very sorry, man. that is so tough

J. Juday said...

Mark, I am so, so sorry. You and Cathy are in my thoughts and prayers.

Unknown said...

Damn, Mark. Heart-breaking, my friend. Love and prayers for you both.

Scotty Henderson said...

My thoughts with you both. Been in hospital myself for the last month. And looks like two more weeks at least. But my issues are minor. All the best.

Adventuresfantastic said...

Words fail me. I hate to hear this. Let me know if there is anything I can do besides prayer.

Tom Stewart said...

Aw dammit. So sorry...

David Farnell said...

Oh Mark, Cathy, I’m so sorry. I know this is incredibly tough for you.